God.

I am really into the audio book thing. I have never listened to one before, but it's really the way to go for me right now. I purchased "Supernatural Childbirth" by Jackie Mize.

Very interesting.
I really liked it.

Also, Beth Moore in "So Long Insecurity" and some Mommy Ministry CD's from our fellowship's mother church.

Revolutionary.

I really seem to have a keen sense of direction in this season of my life. God is not only giving me great guidance and strength, but chiseling at my doubts, fears and uncertainty as well. This doesn't mean I don't have some weak days, but it does mean I am growing more into knowing who I am in God. And who He says I am.

I've also been getting into Nancy Campbell-- I know that some people think she's a little bit too radical, but I really believe she is right on. Motherhood is the highest calling any woman can fulfill.

My ideas and thoughts are being reshaped.

At one time, whenever I got pregnant, my curiosity would get the best of me and I would just have to know the gender of my baby-- now I can't wait for the surprise.

For all my previous births, I never once considered a natural childbirth, but now I can't wait to go for it. I would even go so far as to say that I would be ecstatic to have my babies at home, but I'm not quite there yet in dealing with any fear I might have if a complication were to happen.

What is happening to me? It all seems so strange yet so right.

I have such a burden for other Mommies and their calling. Interesting. I can't wait to see where God takes me and how He will continue to mold me-- Even when I fight Him.