I am almost at the end of this pregnancy.
Knowing our new little daughter can come any day is very exciting and yet keeps me fearful of the actual childbirth.
We are talking like tunnel vision scary if I let my mind go there.
I wish I could trust God more in this area of my life.
I get hard on myself for having the fear of the pain that I do.
It's just that my last three deliveries were traumatic and painful.
I am certainly aware that no matter how bad the pain or overall experience, there will be a beautiful outcome.
I know that God is with me and I believe this baby is a blessing from Him.
But the fear takes over and I can't seem to find peace when I think about being in labor.
I have let it control me at times.
So for now, I focus on all the pink that has taken over my bedroom (pink clothes, pink blankets and pink binkies) and the thoughts of what our new little baby will look like.