Thursday, April 28, 2011

thinking.


(Papa & Parker 2004)

After my Dad lived and fought with cancer for over ten years, I believed it would always be like that. I was expecting him to come out on top just as he always had-- So as strange as it may sound, his passing was not something I really considered. And when I was told that my Dad had only a few weeks left to live, it came upon me too quickly. Where had all the days and hours gone? It was as if the clock had jumped ahead, as if time had been stolen from us...and yet I was privileged enough, blessed to have him for this long. Thank you, Lord.

Today is Parker's 11th birthday....he is REALLY missing his Papa.

8 comments:

kelli said...

My thoughts and prayers have been with you these last few days. I have lost many close loved ones but never a parent. When I read this I cried for you and what you are going through. My mom told me the day her dad died was one of the hardest days of her life. Your little ones are so lucky to have had your dad in their lives and will remember him though great stories and pictures.
Prayers to you

Marilyn said...

My Mother died from complications of breast cancer in 96' & I took care of her until the last 2 weeks. Then in 04' my Father passed after long siege of congestive heart failure & stroke......
My Mother's death turned me into a zombie.... I felt my brain was in neutral for a long time. When my Dad died I was thrown into it all over again.
I feel God gave us the power to grieve. Go ahead & cry or even shake your fist as God loves us & he understands after all he watched his son perish.
You will get through this....This is the way of life no matter how "unreal" it seems now.
My prayers stay with you...
Love,
Marilyn

Mrs.Rabe said...

Happy birthday to Parker!

I imagine you are all still feeling the loss of your dear dad and papa.

Deanna

thechattymommy said...

Oh, Parker!
Happy Birthday!
Can't believe you are already 11!
Praying that God gives you peace and so sorry about your Papa.

Tami said...

please tell Parker how badly i feel for him. May he feel blessed to have such a wonderful legacy left to him. ~hugs

Marla Grace said...

You have been in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs!

Vivian said...

Praying God is healing your heart. He is the great comforter...Your heavenly father and earthly father love you Wendy!
Take care!

Rachel and Family said...

I'm so sorry for all of you.