Tuesday, April 26, 2011

my dad.


(me & my Dad)

Call upon me
in the day of trouble:
I will deliver thee....
Psalm 50:15

That is just what God has done.
Delivered my Dad in the time of trouble
When the pain in his bones overtook him
God delivered him

Last Wednesday, April 20th at 8:21 am
my Dad passed away

Although knowing he's in heaven
brings me great comfort
the hurt in my own heart
runs so deeply

I have come to learn what I could have never known:
how much it hurts to lose
a parent until now

It is too absolute, too final for my mind to wrap around
At times, I cannot believe that the person
who was the oak tree in our family
with its great trunk
is now gone

I was never afraid he wasn't strong enough or tough enough

The first most important man in my life

The one who knew everything I needed to know
And if he didn't know, then no one did
And it didn't matter

How can I let go when I still need him here

How selfish of me when his pain was so extreme

I know he's in heaven

but the loss is overwhelming.

26 comments:

Marla Grace said...

Wendy, I am so sorry for your loss! My heart aches for you! Prayers, and hugs sent your way! Blessings, Marla

carrie said...

I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of your precious dad. Prayers for you and your family.

Becky said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what you are going through. ((Hugs))

Melanie said...

I knew something was wrong when you didn't post for several days. I have been praying for you and your family not knowing what was going on. I will continue to pray and pray more specifically. As a Daddy's girl myself, I know this pain must be indescribable. I pray that the wonderful memories of the past and the glorious hope of an eternal future together with your dad will bring you peace and comfort in the days ahead.

true blessings said...

I'll keep you,your mom and all whom your father's passing has affected.So sorry for your loss~

Kelly said...

Oh my, I am SO sorry for your loss. Having lost my mom much too young a little over a year ago, I feel your pain all too well. It is overwhelming at first. May the Lord be with you, strengthen your heart, and give you the courage to grieve.

Anonymous said...

Im so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with your you and your famlily.

*Ross and Katy* said...

Oh no...I'm so sorry to hear about your father :( I will be saying extra prayers for your family.

Sara said...

I am so sorry Wendy for the loss of your sweet daddy. Please know that my heart hurts for you right now. I am praying for the Lord to sustain you during this time... I know that He will carry you through this time and I know the pain runs deep. My heart hurts for you friend... praying in earnest for you all!

Lynne said...

Deepest Heartfelt Sympathy....

Rachel and Family said...

I'm so sorry.

Theresa said...

Sorry to hear of your loss.

Marilyn said...

Keep your faith strong .....
My prayers for you & your family
Blessings
Marilyn

Mrs.Rabe said...

I am sorry for your loss, Wendy. So thankful for his freedom from pain and the truth of knowing you will see him again one day!

Praying
Deanna

~Lovely Vintage Country Life~ said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I just recently lost my Mother in January. Not a day goes by when I don't say to my husband, "It's just not real yet." You are in my prayers. May God be with you and your family.

Kelli

thechattymommy said...

I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your Dad.
Please know that we are all praying for you and know that when you are prayed out- we are still pressing in for you, your mom and your whole family.
thanks for letting us know.

kristin said...

Oh, I am so sorry for your great loss! I know the pain of losing a beloved parent and I ache with you. I will be praying for you and your family in this time and for the days, weeks, and months ahead.

kay said...

I'm so sorry!

Tami said...

Wendy i pray you can feel my arms hugging you. i am so sorry.

DONNA BOGIE said...

So very sorry for your familys loss. my Dad has also passed away and it was and still is very difficult, after all he was my "Daddy" always will be
Donna, Ny

Joy said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I'll pray for your comfort and comfort for the rest of your father's loved ones. So sorry :(

Nikki said...

Hi Wendy,
We are sorry to hear about the loss of your Dad.~Nikki

April said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your dad. Praying for your family!

The Rose Room said...

so so sorry, heartfelt sympathy to you and your family! xo

Jerelene said...

Wendy, So very sorry for your loss. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
Jerelene

Lori said...

My deepest sympathy Wendy. My Mom and Dad have both passed. I can only hope my son who was tragically killed 6 weeks ago is with them, it is the only comfort I can find in this. The loss of a Mom or Dad is so strong, children the utmost worst. I wish you great comfort in your memories and photos, sadly it is all we've left. Love,Lori