Wednesday, February 25, 2015

the day before.


Wow-- I can’t believe that tomorrow the little guy will be in my arms. 
I feel like this has been the longest pregnancy. To think I was pregnant for all of last year’s football season and still pregnant now makes it feel like forever. 
Lately, I’ve been telling Chris that I’m so uncomfortable that I wish I could unzip my body and step out of it. Does that make sense? 
I can’t wait to share his name tomorrow with a picture for everyone to see. 
I have really had a lot of fear and anxiety over the upcoming delivery because I’m still suffering panic attacks stemming from Ruby, Jasper, and River’s births. Ha! 
Instead of just trying to block it out like I did for previous births and not think about it at all (which I am quite willing to do), I have really been turning it over to God and using it to trust Him more. 
I want to be like those SEAL snipers who can regulate their breathing and heart rates even under extreme conditions. I am far, no where near that. 
Today, I really seem to have broken through and have had only victory, joy and excitement for tomorrow. I’ve got it all planned out in my mind: Check in at 9am, the doctor will help move things along and the next thing I know, I’ll be popping this baby out. That’s my plan-- Oh! and spend the rest of the day relaxing and resting in my hospital room spending time with Chris and the new baby. 
Sounds perfect right? I’ll let you know how it all unfolds. 
Another cool thing that happened today was that my new car seat which wasn’t supposed to be here till Saturday suddenly showed up in the hands of the Fed Ex man. Wow! So neat! 

7 comments:

Kathy said...

You're in my thoughts & prayers Wendy!!! Be encouraged God is in control. Remember that just as you are thinking about holding your new little one, God is already holding you! You are safe in His arms.

Jo said...

I cannot believe you're full term with baby number 11 - look at you, you look fantastic!!!!

Thoughts for the day said...

Remember to breathe... slow... and deliberate. Both my kids (only had two) I had great labor... son was 2 hours from start to finish, daughter was 4 with a breech C section. She was folded wrong, her back was to my front, and her head was up. I could cup her head in my hand... before birth... it was so 'real'. you will do fine.

Nikki said...

How exciting!!!!! :) Can't wait to hear he is here!

Mrs.Rabe said...

So excited for you!

Can't wait to hear all about it!

Deanna

Jen said...

Praying for you this morning. Looking forward to seeing pictures!

Vivian said...

Praying the Lord will bless you with this delivery, may He alone provide you with strength and peace know He is by you. May He give you a quick easy delivery, one you can rejoice in and give Him praise. Praying for all concerns !!!!
xoxoxo